Archive | December 2011

Leaving Things Too Late

I really have to start writing earlier. It seems I have all my best ideas before noon, and have forgotten them all by now. My problem is still “putting it off”; doing whatever I can except write. Am I boring you yet? I’m certainly boring myself!

Though I have found that if I say things over and over again, and don’t do the follow through, I eventually get so sick of listening to myself that I act. There’s several things of this nature in my life right now. A couple of which I’m making progress on.

The first is my daily walk. I’m moving into week two of walking first thing in the morning, Monday through Friday. I talked about doing it for such a long time that I was driving myself crazy listening to myself. So now I’m acting, and thoroughly enjoying beginning my day with a walk and a meditation by the river.

I suppose the writing is slowly joining the “doing” category of my life. This I’ve been talking about for years, on and off. Still not entirely sure what I want to write about. I love a good mystery and have thought about trying my hand at that. I love Agatha Christie mysteries, and would be proud to write like she did. I guess if I have a hero it would be her.

Anyway, the day is almost done and I’m very tired. I’ve been helping my daughter set up her website – Erin Lanahan Method  – and, while it’s been a lot of fun, I realize I’m still using it to avoid. Small steps I suppose.

Well, time to put my feet up for the night.

Thanks for listening

Sandra L

Tis The Season

I’ve just spent most of my time allotted to writing tonight looking for a Christmas Theme. Sadly, there’s not much available, but I must do something, so here it is 🙂 I’ll continue the search for something better.

I love the Christmas Season, and usually put aside my cares and woes and fill up with the “Spirit of the Season”. This year is a little different, and although I’m adjusting to how it will be, I’m also missing how it usually is.

This Christmas will be spent in my homeland of Australia, and will be only the second one I’ve spent here in 35 years. I have been living in the U.S. since 1976. It isn’t only the difference in the weather (Christmas being in the Summer here), there’s just not as much made of it here, which I hadn’t remembered.

Of course I don’t know what it would be like in the city, but here in the small New South Wales South Coast town I’m staying in, there is no Christmas Tree downtown, no lights along the streets, no Christmas Carols playing in the stores. These are among the many things I love about Christmas.

Usually I would have a tree myself, set out my Christmas Village and other ornaments, and make my home a fairyland for a couple of weeks. It’s a really nice way to see out the old year, and welcome in the New Year. My family is not doing any of this, it’s not how they celebrate here.

So I’ve decided to make the most of things here. I will take Joy from being with my Mum, my Sister, my Daughter, my Nephew and his girlfriend. It will be wonderful for all of us to be together, and I will focus on that. For all the baubles (as much as I love them) are not nearly as important as being with people I love.

I hope you enjoy your journey toward Christmas, and that it’s everything you hope it will be. Just 13 days to go!

Thanks for listening.

Sandra L

Developing New Habits

Today I am writing simply to write. I thought I was inspired to write about my recent travels, but it seems I’m not. So I’m simply going to fulfill my committment today, and write.

I know I shouldn’t worry about how good it is yet – I’m just trying to create the habit of writing every day. Not very inspiring, I know 🙂 Hopefully as time goes on I’ll become more drawn to my Blog, and gain more clarity on what I want to write about. I have so many ideas, yet I’m finding it difficult to get them to flow from mind to paper.

I do believe that talent is a muscle that requires a regular work out. For so long now I haven’t given any time to the practice, so I imagine it will take me awhile to get the words flowing freely. I’m in the process of developing several new habits including exercise. It’s not easy to get new things established as a routine that I enjoy, but I am making progress.

Beginning last week, Monday through Friday I’m walking by the river and stopping at my tree to meditate. Now for 14 days I’ll write here on my Blog even if it isn’t any good. I just have to stay focused on doing it in both cases, and trust it will all become easier and easier as I practice.

That’s it for today. No judgement here 🙂

Thanks for listening.

Sandra L

Day 3 is the New Day 2 :)

So, yesterday I didn’t write. Today I thought, “so much for my 14 day committment!”, but what’s the point of giving myself a hard time over it. Today I simply decided to write again and not judge myself too harshly for my missed day yesterday.

I’m too used to making other people’s priorities my own. What better way to avoid what I need to be confronting in my life than putting the focus on “helping” someone else with theirs. It’s the sneakiest form of procrastination there is. “Oh….I would have written yesterday, but my daughter (my son, my friend, my whomever) needed my help”.

Basically letting myself down under the guise of being the proverbial “Good Samaritan”, allows me to feel good about myself while avoiding what needs to happen in my own life. Actually the best thing I can do for the other people in my life is get my own on track.

Doesn’t really matter how much I write, just that I do – at least for now. I’ve always found that the best way to create a new habit, is a little bit at a time. When it’s exercise I begin with 5 minutes on the treadmill. Little by little I build that up to 30 minutes. It might take a couple of weeks to get there, but get there I do.

For right now, it’s only important that I write. It doesn’t have to be long….it doesn’t have to be good….it just has to happen. One day at a time.

Thanks for listening.

Sandra L

“To Thine Own Self Be True” – Shakespeare

For such a long time I have thought of myself as a writer, even though not much has actually flowed from me in quite a while. I started this Blog so long ago, thinking it was time to focus on being True to who I believed I was. Yet I find myself doing anything at all to distract myself from writing. Even though today the temptation to update my “About Page” instead of writing was strong, I have resisted 🙂

From time to time I decide that I’m just “pretending” to want to write – I really don’t want it – and I put it aside once more. Round and round I’ve gone over the course of years, always winding up back here….wanting to write.

So today I am making a committment to write every day for 14 days. I feel the resistance as I write those words, but I know I must begin somewhere if I am to live Shakespeare’s words, “To Thine Own Self Be True”. How can I be True to anyone, or anything, else in my life if I’m not being True to myself.

So today I take the first step toward realizing my True Passion. I do it fear and all, because the only thing worse than finding out I’m no good at this, is never knowing if I could be.

Thank you for listening. See you tomorrow.